Emotion to mood
Mood to thought
Thought to action
Action to reflection
Reflection to mood
Back and forth
To and fro
Freshman year started, and I met him. The frattiest of frat boys. Sam. All I wanted from the moment I met him was to get him to fall for me, whether I realized it or not. I tried to stay away, stay unattached, told him we would never be able to be together anyway. We were too different of people.
That all changed.
What he said he would never do… Never ask me on a date, never actually develop feelings for me, never be in a relationship for the rest of college, never ask me out, never call me his girlfriend, never say “love” to me, never be in love during college again, never trust another woman so long as he lived.
Never say never.
I thought he was talking to me about not getting attached, but he asked me on a date. I thought he was calling things off with me permanently, but he asked me to be his girlfriend. I thought he was going to tell me I was moving too fast, but he told me he loved me. I thought that all of this would never happen, but it did.
And I couldn’t be any happier.
I was shown how fragile life was on Saturday. I saw the terror on bystanders’ faces. I saw the victims of a senseless crime. I saw lives change. I was reminded that we don’t know when or where our time on Earth will end. When or where we will breathe our last breath. For one man, it was in the middle of a busy food court on a Saturday evening.
I say all the time that every moment we have to live our life is a blessing. So often I have found myself taking it for granted. Every hug from a family member. Every laugh we share with friends. Even the times of solitude are all blessings. Every second of every day is a gift. After Saturday evening, I know I truly understand how blessed I am for each second I am given.
I feel like I am overreacting about what I experienced. But I can’t help but be thankful for whatever caused me to make the choices that I made that day. My mind keeps replaying what I saw over in my head. I hope the victims make a full recovery. I wish I could shake this odd feeling from my chest. The feeling that’s reminding me how blessed I am. The same feeling that made me leave the Eaton Center. The feeling that may have potentially saved my life."
- Jessica Redfield was shot and killed last night at a midnight screening of ‘The Dark Knight Rises,’ along with 11 others when a gunman opened fire in a theater. The above is from her blog, written in June, after she narrowly escaped another senseless shooting at a mall in Toronto. (via newsweek)